Well, I didn't post my weight Monday, August 26.  The reason is that I ate a bunch of grapes for breakfast and thought that much food would change my weight enough to make it inaccurate in comparison to earlier weight-ins.

I can hardly wait until I get below 300.  I'm getting excited!  I expect I am the only person who ever got excited about that weight goal!

The first of September is nearly here, which means we get to join the rec center soon.  I can hardly wait to exercise.  I'll start on a stationary bike to build up some lung power and then go on from there.  I will see about hiring someone to set me up on a scheduled plan after that.

I have an appt with my cardiologist September 10.  It will show a good weight loss!  Not GREAT, like I had hoped.  But it took me longer than it should have to get off sugared soft drinks.

Yesterday after church, Bob and I were invited to Mark and Nancy Lueck's house.  They fed us, Stan and Sheila Lamb, and the missionaries, Elder Aschcroft and Elder Hala'ufia.  We had some crispy fried flour tortillas topped with refried beans, vegetables, sour cream, and a choice of salsas.  Nancy had made creme broulet for the first time and used a blow torch to make the sugar into a crackling top, right there at the kitchen counter.  So I ate everything I was offered, except for the sugared KoolAid.  I was very moderate and was satisfied.  But the dessert creme broulet came in custard cups and I ate it all.  Later in the evening, I finished off the potato salad that was left over from Friday when we fed the missionaries dinner here.  Bad decision!  But I'm forgiving myself and carrying on from here.

This morning my blood sugar was 144.  My weight was 316 a half hour ago, but I know that will come down after the lasix pill, which I took this morning, has finished doing its daily job.  I'll post today's weight in a couple of hours.

Today I'm planning to make lollipops so I can send some to Mary in Utah and have some for Bob and for taking with for kids and grandkids when we go to MN Thursday.  I am not tempted by the suckers.  I do enjoy smelling them as I mix and pour them.  I also plan to cut more fabric for the baby quilts.  There is something very calming and therapeutic about that.  Strange, eh?

Today I weighed in at 313!  I pray for the strength and resolve to keep eating wisely.  I'll write more later if I make time to do so.  Had a great day at church and are going to eat with friends this afternoon. I think I'm okay to eat reasonably.  But I go there with a prayer in my heart.

I've been weighing myself often, sometimes even 5 or 6 times a day.  I've also been taking my lasix every day.  Today I weigh 314.

I do need to add exercise, but am still waiting for Bob, who decided that we needed to wait until September 1 because of income.  We've been paying on the AC, so ran out of available money in August.  We don't want to dip into savings, saving it for true emergencies or major, needed purchases.  If he doesn't want to start our rec center membership September 1, I'm going to go over and sign us up from my checking account.  I get SSA money deposited on the fourth Wednesday of the month.

It looks like every year or two I renew broken vows of the past about controlling my diet, exercise, and weight.  Kind of pitiful!  So let's see how long this one lasts.  I pray it lasts the rest of my life.

Today I pronounce myself 316.  I weigh a little less with only my underwear, plus/minus 2.  This is the weight from my accurate scale, 3 hours after taking my lasix.   316 is 2 lbs less than I weighed before lasix.  It is 2 lbs more than what I weigh with only underwear.

So this is all boring, and I hope I'm the only one reading it!

Janie showed me the TV show American Ninja Warrior.  I LOVE it.  It is young men and some women who have trained to run a course of physical strength, balance, endurance, etc.  It is exhilarating to see them go through so much and either fall short or complete the course.  It shows me that our bodies can be made very strong.  And so it is kind of a reminder to me that I can build myself up, though not as far because of my age.  I wouldn't ever have tried to be as strong as those training for the show in the first place, but I tell myself I can improve my strength and health.

In the past--the now-far past--I exercised to tapes and DVDs and did improve.  I also was at a health club and got strong and better lung capacity from that exercising.  What I miss now is physical exercise.

Today I can hardly walk from the parking lot into the store without huffing and puffing.  I am always aware of the location of the next place I can sit down and catch my breath.  With my excess weight, it is like I am pulling around a 150 pound dead person on a stretcher tied to my shoulders!  A visual I remember seeing on TV is someone pulling an old porcelain bath tub of 200 pounds to show what it is like to be obese.

I'm going to stop talking now.  I can't stop thinking about my past efforts.  I need to go pray again.  They say the best predictor of future actions is past actions.  I'm not going to predict.  I'm going to ask help and learn.

Today I weigh 317, a few hours after taking the lasix and urinating a lot.  I recorded 318.6 before the pill.  Then I drank and ate some before that final weight.

I would write more, but Jeopardy is on and then I have to do laundry and get ready for RS meeting tonight on journaling and family history.

I haven't use our blog for more than 2 years!!!  I'm not going to notify anyone that I am blogging again. In stead, I am using this to log my dietary and exercise goings-on.  So this is really a blog just to myself.  I doubt I will include pictures because I don't know how.

I will call today, DAY 1.

Bob had me write him a list of what to buy at the grocery store.  He shopped early in the day, and since I was still urinating every 20 minutes or so because of the lasix pill I take every morning, he went alone.  But he did a good job getting what I wrote.  (Note:  Some days I do not take lasix.  Some days I take it in the evening because I am usually home and awake that time of day.  I should take it once a day, but I am not always a compliant patient.)  This morning I had my last ounces of sugared soda pop.

I decided to use the DASH diet and bought the book on Kindle last week.  Now, I have read about and attended classes about how to eat properly.  Like most Americans, I truly know what I ought to eat!  I have lost 30 pounds and regained it back and forth for years.  Anyway, I pray to be successful NOW because I am declining in strength and endurance as I age.  And I want to live to enjoy Bob during our retirement and to be around to watch the grandchildren grow.  And to be of used to the Lord here in Watertown SD.

I am brave enough today to write down my weight.  I weighed in earlier today at 318.  The highest I have ever known I weighed was 348.  I might have weighed more.  348 was spring of this year, 2013.  I started a new medication, which really cut my appetite and made me feel nauseous for a number of weeks.  That started my recent weight loss.  I had gotten down to 312, and obviously got my appetite back and put back 6 lbs or so.

Because of the lasix, I can lose 4-6 lbs in a few hours immediately after taking the pill and urinating.  I don't usually urinate much in the evening when I take the pill in the morning.

End of my true confession for the day.  If anyone reads this, let me know.  I'm curious.  But my assumption is that after these years NOT writing, no one will.