I couldn't wait

This morning I couldn't take it any longer. After Bob left for work, I opened our new scale and set it up according to the instructions. (Which I am proud to say I understood completely.) It shows I have lost 21 pounds since November 29. I don't care about the BMI, hydration, etc figures. I timidly--and hoping very few read this entry--admit my weight was 334 pounds; it is now down to 313. I think I had to write the exact weight in order to have it to look back on as I continue with the transition I'm making to a healthy lifestyle. I don't know too many people who look forward to their weight finally falling below 300, but it will be a huge milestone for me. It will finally match the weight I admitted to on my Minnesota driver's license! Maybe for my birthday on May 31, I will go to the licensing office on Highway 10 and see about modifying the weight and getting a new picture. Let's see what weight I should be by then. . . .

In a related morning story, I exercised for 17 minutes, one minute more than yesterday. Tomorrow's goal is to hang on for 18 minutes. I can't wait to get to the part where I get to use the exercise bands that came with the DVD. I'm also thinking a stabilizer ball is in my future.

See? There is always something to look forward to!

A Couple of Thoughts

Today was Bob's day off, so after attending a Primary presidency meeting this morning, he and I ran some errands together. I couldn't get over the irony of driving to the Anoka Post Office on his day off, seeing as how he goes to work at the Brooklyn Center Post Office 5 or 6 days a week. But he never seems to have a chance to mail off letters and bills while at work; they keep their carriers WAY too busy. While in traffic, some other driver irritated me, and I found myself saying, "Oh, my __!!! Did you see?" I surprised myself as much as I did Bob, but immediately apologized to the Lord, because I know better than to speak like that. I blame the time I spent as a waitress at The Tally-Ho Restaurant the summer after I graduated from high school. Before that, the worst language I used was when I told my brother, "I'm going to kill you!!!" as we watched Saturday morning cartoons on the living room couch and had foot fights.

After apologizing and asking forgiveness, I calmed down and was thankful for the principle of repentance. I know God forgave me right away. I am thankful to know about J Golden Kimball. He was an apostle, and he used to also have a time with his tongue. He would even use some colorful language when speaking in General Conference, but then would immediately apologize to God. He is quoted as saying, "They can't send me to hell. I repent too damn fast!" He is definitely my exemplar!

We had lunch at The Bamboo Village. It was our date for the week. We love going out together for a peaceful meal we don't have to fix or clean up after. And while the meal didn't exactly fit my new lifestyle, it really wasn't too bad. They serve the best egg rolls in the upper midwest, and we did split an order. There was enough eggs foo yung and rice left over for me to have it for dinner. We brought enough of Bob's hot and spicy chicken home for his dinner as well.

Then on to Wal Mart. Last night at Transitions, I told the group that I don't like to weigh myself at home because I tend to obsess over the slightest weight variances and drive myself crazy generally by weighing too often. I said I prefer to wait for the official weigh-in every month on our coaches' scale that they bring with them. Then on the way home I couldn't stop thinking about having my own scale! Was I Jekyll or Hyde? The scale in our bathroom is rusty and inaccurate. I mean, you could jump on it until it registers what you want to weigh, within reason. Or you could sneak up slowly on it for an especially low reading. I looked at scales last night at Wal Mart, but only in passing; I had gone in to buy a few other things on my way home. But today, I couldn't remember where the scales were located and asked 2 employees for help finding them! And then I selected the exact same brand and model scale that Leslie and Shaun bring to Transitions! It measure up to 400 lbs in 0.2 lb increments, it figures out your body fat, your hydration level, your body mass index (BMI)and your bone mass. It stores information for 4 users and tracks the last weigh-in per user. It has a 1.5 inch LCD display and has a tempered glass platform with silver accents. I told Bob I'd pay for the scale since it was $39.99 and I had money in my account. I thought he'd be against it, and even hoped he'd reason me into not buying it, but he said, "Okay, but I'll pay for it. Let's throw that old one away when we get home." (We each have a checking account, but it is really all OUR money; it's a long story, but it works for us.)

So now I sit here at the computer, looking at our new scale, still in its box. I wish I had the strength of character to take it back and go with my original intention of weighing infrequently. I think I might do better that way. Yet at the same time, I'm trying to figure if it is a good thing that I want to have an accurate scale in our possession, or if it is my crazy self attempting to sabotage my weight loss/lifestyle management.

I'll be damn sure to post when I figure it out! (Did you notice how quickly I repented?)

A Couple of Thoughts

Water!!! I need more water!

When I was a child and teenager living at home, my mother often told me that when I feel hungry, I should just have a big drink of water. Finally, I am willing to believe! I could go into a discussion of the family dynamics and logical (to me) explanations that made me NOT want to have a big drink of water, but that is water under the bridge. (Too punny! I kill myself!) TODAY I can report that I love water and sometimes can't seem to get enough, even though our plumbing is working just fine.

For the most part, I drink Anoka City water. We used to have bottled water from Culligan, but discontinued it about a year ago. I'm considering now whether to keep drinking city water. But when I fill the car's gas tank, I still like to go into the convenience store and pick up some bottled water. So far the only brand I don't like is Aquafina.

I now realize that most of the time I think I am hungry, I am simply thirsty. A major feeling of peace comes to me when I take a big drink of water. Instead of throwing some water down while standing by the sink, now I most often run the water to be sure it is nice and cold and add ice cubes. Then I take my bottle to a relaxing place and enjoy. The ritual of preparing it has become part of the satisfaction.

Then if I am still hungry and it isn't meal time, I can go get something low glycemic to snack on. And I must now admit that water does suppress the appetite, and that when I feel hungry, I should just have a big drink of water. All diet advice tells us to drink at least 8 glasses of water a day. So that is one of my daily goals. It is such and easy goal to attain!

I'm Baaaaaaack!

A recent winter-scape as seen from our deck

After a nearly 3-month hiatus, I'm back to blogging. It wasn't intentional; I simply drifted away. I seem to have had little original or entertaining to say. Plus, the kids are all adults now, living elsewhere, so I have no one to photograph and put up on the blog.

Well, no one other than Marian, Bob, me, and 2 cats. The first 3 of us are only growing older and not going anywhere much in this winter weather. Post one picture of the 3 of us, and that's good for at least a year or two. Post one picture of the cats, and that is good for years and years since their looks never change after kittenhood.

Since October, we've had a great holiday season. It started with a beautiful sit-down Thanksgiving dinner at Ryan and Andrea's new house in Albertville. Andrea set the table in fall colors with cloth napkins she had cut and sewn. She and the kids made place cards with Scrabble letters so everyone knew where to sit. They served sparking juice in wine goblets. It was so special and fine. And we all had such a good time visiting and playing together.

Just before Thanksgiving, I heard about and joined a Transitions Lifestyle group. I heard about it from a friend who lives in the state of Maine, and she--Cindi--phoned me with the information on a group starting meetings in Fridley that very night! I know the Lord works through us for each other, and I'm most thankful for Cindi in this regard. The 12-week course starts with a 7-day detox. Most of us in the group started AFTER Thanksgiving. I started November 29. For that week, I started the day with lemon juice in warm water and then ate only fruits and vegetables. And plenty of water. Since then I have lost 20 pounds!

For the first year after retiring, I had become so sedentary that I couldn't walk a block without having to stop to catch my breath. Climbing the 13 stairs from the basement found me breathing hard. I felt nauseous and weak much of the time. When we had our first annual family reunion in Itasca State Park last July, I didn't have the stamina to even walk to see some Lady Slippers the grandchildren had told me about. Forget going on a bike ride with the family! Walking from the parking lot to the headwaters of the Mississippi at Lake Itasca was a major effort, and included several rests. It was not a far walk.

In an effort to get myself involved in life again, I decided to audition for The Minnesota Mormon Chorale last fall. I used to sing with The Bach Society Chorus in Minneapolis years ago, and missed participating with fine musicians to perform beautiful music. I was so excited to be invited to sing! Things I learned: I needed to sit down more often than another other singer in the group; we were expected to stand even in practices; I really don't look good or feel comfortable in concert dress; my legs, feet, and back cause me nearly unbearable pain by the end of a 45-minute concert.

In stead of giving up, I decided I needed to get healthy if I wanted to keep up with my family and with life in general for the rest of my life. I had had enough of sitting around not feeling well. I couldn't imagine spending any more time NOT PARTICIPATING.

So I was prime for changing. I knew doing the same things I had done before didn't work. I had been reading about Cindi's detoxing and her renewed love of vegetables. And now after finding the same kind of group she had, I can firmly say that I also absolutely love vegetables. Celery has replaced my Icee habit.

After the detox week, we started on a low glycemic index diet. It is really a change of lifestyle that we are working towards. It takes about 12 weeks to change. I suppose that is why the course is that long. Until a few days before Christmas, I was sticking to low glycemic and did not eat anything with sugar in it. I even made our traditional Little French Christmas Cookies without tasting the batter or eating baked cookies. I baked rolls for Christmas dinner, and that is when I started tasting things made with sugar. We had a most enjoyable Christmas, spending Christmas Eve at Justin and Madelyn's and Christmas dinner here at our house with all of our Minnesota kids and grandkids. Nothing on earth is as close to my heart as family, and thank the Lord we have such a loving family. I made fudge and caramels after Christmas; I ate small pieces here and there for a week. I gave lots of the candies away, though, and even now a few pieces remain on the counter in a plastic storage dish.

But I find I am having a hard time getting back to eating foods from the low glycemic index, and I believe it is because even some sugar in my system makes me crave more. Even bread is a binge item for me, and almost all bread has some form of sugar in it. But I did learn of Ezekiel Bread from one of the Transitions Lifestyle coaches, and I use it now instead of any other.

Soon I'll be doing another week of detox. I'll be doing it with a friend. After that, I will continue to keep refined sugars out of my diet. When I was off sugar completely, these are the benefits I noticed:

No nausea

No dizziness

No headaches

No abdominal bloating or discomfort

Increased energy

Less sleepiness

Greater sense of well-being

More positive attitude

Enjoyment of housework (I especially love this benefit!)

Better comprehension of what I read

More interest in almost everything

Enough for one day. I'll blog about my weight, exercise, and changing diet and cooking. I'm very thankful to have found a new beginning in my retirement years. Who would have thought?

Janice's First Babysitting Experience

Sorry to make a second posting on the same day as the last, but I DID manage to get yesterday's picture of Janice into the blog. See how thrilled she is not to be spending the evening with Grandma while her mom and dad go out on a date for the first time since Janice's birth!!
Janice cried for the first hour or so. This picture was taken after the crest of the crying was over and she was only sad. After her crawling and walking to the front door several times while tears were still streaming, I decided to keep her in my room with the door closed. I must say she did get a lot of practice walking, as she would alternately walk toward the door and then toward me when I put my arms out for her. She calmed down after a while and ate some Gerber banana puffs and drank milk from her tippy cup. Then she let me put her on my lap where we played with her Magna Doodle and a musical toy. She got to even dancing to the tunes. Then Kayla came back from having seen Where the Wild Things Are at the Imax theater in St Michael with Uncle Phil and his friend, Erica. (His friend, not his girlfriend! Oh sure, Phil!) Then the three of us were playing with the toys and playing hiding games on the bed with the pillows. By the time Janice's parents came home, things were hunky-dory!

Janice naturally was overjoyed to see her mother. Things went much better than I thought they would. I am hopeful that the next evening she spends with me will go even better. But I'm not going to count on it!

Janice's First Birthday

Looks like she's reading the card with care!

It's October, but I'm posting pictures from Janice's birthday because I'm only now beginning to learn how to use my MacBook Pro to store and post pictures. The party was at her house in St Paul. She turned ONE on September 30. Those in attendance were her parents, of course, and her sister Kayla, Greatgrandmother Anderson, Grandpa Anderson, Uncle Phil, me, and many of her cousins from Gerald's side of the family.
Three of the four generations of women present at the party!! I, the grandmother, was taking the picture. Greatgrandmother Marian got a kick out of watching the gift opening.
All of these girl cousins spent most of their time playing upstairs in Kayla's room where all the costume stuff and girlie toys were. Janice had a princess cake, which we were all happy to help her eat.

That's all for now. I took a picture of Janice last night to keep a record of how she felt about being babysat for the first time in her life. But I can't seem to find where it got stored! When I get to it, I'll post it.

The hottest news item right now is that I auditioned for and was invited to sing with the Minnesota Mormon Chorale. Unfortunately, I've been sick and had to miss a couple of practices. But I sang 2 songs with them on a program organized by the St Paul Stake Relief Society and enjoyed it ever so much! I look forward to the songs we are preparing for Christmas. I will post dates and times for those concerts later.